The Antidote.

Let it out
Let it go
Just go with the flow.

This is a one way stream
You row your boat
Let nature do its job
Keep yourself afloat.

Don’t let the poison spread
A tear or two
You might shed,
Find the antidote
In the same kind of boat.

One chance
The stream goes on
With or without you
Let bygones be bygones.

Your past
Is chasing you
The end can be seen
You are burning blue
You’re now immune
Nothing can stop you.

Teenage Dream.

Sometimes it might feel as if I don’t care
Like I’m just slipping away
It might feel greater than you can bear
I’m incomplete,
Without you.

You drove me through this hell
On a friend-ship,
When we first met
Things weren’t so swell,
Time changes everything
This spell’s strengthening
Came in like a huge bombshell.

Two rebels without a cause
Our life wasn’t for fancy cars,
We’ll be happy with our dirty paws.

We have our differences
We are a sum of our foolish experiences.

We are living the teenage dream,
As long as it’s you and me
Making the little Barbies steam,
All they can do is daydream.

Our hate for them will never fade.
They’ll never defeat us,
As long as we’re walking in each other’s shade.

Because we’re living the teenage dream, baby,
We know nothing of the word maybe
We’ll be running in this hell till we’re eighty
Our body all old and achy,
We will still be racy,
I don’t care,
‘Cus we’re living the teenage dream, baby.

Lose Yourself.

Disclaimer – I wanted to write a poem on some things for weeks that were bugging me. But exams came in without knocking on the door. This is the final product after 4-weeks struggle. ;_; Have a great day. ❤️

When I was all alone

When I was searching for a home

Black clouds everywhere

So cynical,

Showers above me

Should I be sad or happy

That man before

I should have never been,

An item of comfort,

Which I found solace in

It had been a big burden

Carrying,

Aggravated by the masks

All around

Calling it an aberration

You say it reduces my reputation,

It’s the only ray of light I’ve got

In these clouds of darkness.

A better person

I had aimed to be

But the bullet, it,

Came back at me.

Wanted to change myself,

Help myself

Tried so hard to fit in

Everything was wrong

At the right moments

My world was at sixes and sevens.

This earth was rotating

And I was just waiting

For my veins

To be filled with glitter.

We write on this page of life

With ink of pain,

All that extra effort

Hopefully, didn’t die in vain.

Are they really as lovely and good

As they seem,

Are they really as cool

As they seem,

Just gambled everything

And faced my fears

To be broken down into tears.

Sunshine piercing through my eyes

My heart skips a beat

The mind glows,

Fires up every nerve

Like there’s no tomorrow.

These thoughts keep echoing

In the back of my head

Until each and every brain cell

They shred.

My clothes are worn,

My heart is torn

Tortured and toyed,

My patience is gone,

But I shall never admit defeat.

I wake up once again

My misery plays on repeat

I’m fading away

My knees are weak

My existence, petty,

I just wrote this so I could say

Mom’s spaghetti.

I slip into improbable fantasies

Without a trace of resistance

The ferocious thunder roars above

Snap back to reality.

I followed you into a dark place

I became your prey

Beautiful

How you did it with such grace.

I wake up once again,

For this beautiful sunshine

Singing my name in glee,

I wake up once again,

Knowing that a heart beats

In rhythm with mine.

Why?!

She only asked for a new beginning.

The way her sins were spread around
Like an epidemic,
Words are usually lost
In the stream of the mind
Did you know her life they’d cost?

The way she was objectified
Threw around
Her tragedies buried deep,
It’s not easy going on
The road ahead is very steep.
Leave everything behind
And move on,
Embrace the change,
Welcoming warmly the fact
That the next step was
Early Eternal Sleep.

The way she was pressurized
She had made up her mind
There was no going back
No one to confide,
She from herself would hide.

Her situation was dire
Her last resort she had pushed aside
No matter how much she tried
The words just won’t come out right.

Don’t be shy
To say hi,
You could’ve saved her life
Scared,
We might have strifes.
Waited,
For the perfect time.
Now she was just gone
After her 15 minutes of fame,
Please impute them for this crime.

Shamed,
For something she never did,
Her heart was broken
Then stomped on by him.
Her faith in humanity
Was already dwindling
He came by to rub salt in her wound.

Then came another,
The root,
You did it all as a joke
And looted from a burning home.

Sorry for doing
Everything even she didn’t know she did,
For putting on you a burden,
So big.

  • ( 13 reasons why has been a huge inspiration for this. That book will stay with me forever  { I hope so } ) ❤️

Moonlight Serenade.

She’s a beautiful mess inside
Lost in a world of her own
Where she wears the crown
She got no flaws to hide.

So caught up in her thoughts,
They’re like a cloud
On which she floats.

I follow behind her
In her strong sillage,
A broken man
Lead into her heart.

She walks on this earth with pride,
In her eyes
Brightly pied,
I could see the universe
I’d just get unnerved.

When the sky is clear
And goes away the night
She then too shines very, very bright
And my heart,
She smites.

She’s so disparate,
In good spirits
And sublime.

Like the sun’s apricity
In winter,
Her caress,
Brings me immense amenity.

Triggers.

They were the triggers to my mind
A Himalayan blunder,
How could I be so blind
I became confined
I wish this clock I could unwind,
Go back in time
Fix everything
If only life was so kind
And you I had declined
All the pieces to my life would be perfectly aligned.
We were like threads,
If we just hadn’t entwined
Only for it to break
By a masked snake
It all just fell behind,
There were no window blinds
You had to go against the wind,
I took your offer kind.

Forest.

We all are like forests
Fragile,
A spark is all that’s needed
To bring down these fighters.

Our bodies react
Withering away with each spark
We all want this fire to get extinguished
But we are scared of getting burnt.

I chose to be a firefighter
Been putting out other fires
While the savage combustion
Within me
Cause my innocent roots to decline.

Forever poisoned,
Ashes remain
Making me a wise man
Who is just dead inside.

White Noise.

I need to love more, work more,
If all I want is good.
I, myself, make it hard; to let myself go
My fearfulness hurts me
Like a hungry predator.
Pain is real, but so is hope
I used to laugh at my hearts plight,
Now nothing, could even make me smile.
Everything has a need for patience
Hope is what keeps us alive,
You’re drowning
But it’s too early to die
This is just the calm before the storm,
Everyone says you will be fine
In deafening silence
You can always rinse the surface but the stain will shine.
We are the devils
Let’s kill our fears and dance in death tonight.

x-x A tad bit of MIW influence.🌞 x-x

A Confusing Lie.

Muddle,
That’s what life is
What once mattered the most
In a maze of memories is lost.

Dysphoric,
Always thinking of putting yourself
In someone else’s shoes
Inculcating thoughts of being obsolete.

Lovelorn,
Fighting for something that never was yours
Slowly but surely
Losing their sight,
Under your radar.

Thantophonal,
Athazagoraphobic,
Afraid to be loved
Afraid to be remembered,
Ironic.

My Existence.

The entirety of my freshman year
I was like an apparition
Roamed through the gloomy corridors
Each with its own moans.

Tried to create a good impression
Staggered by the fear of slander and depression.

Victim of abnegation
Friendly abstention
Causing a series of awkward interviews and abreactions
I was an aberration
Craving for affection
Lacking the power of captivation.

Constantly castigated
For a choice I never made,
My life was a puzzle
Longing for coligation.

Harsh words used to hit very hard
No companion to comfort me like, fomentation.

Another despondent soul
Wandering,
Craving.