twenty sixteen

Let’s dive deep into this
Work of mine, where my impulses hide, low tide.
Where these wires in my mind, intertwine to define the colors I feel, my penned down reel.
Tyrannical chemicals losing control,
error 404, Dopamine isn’t working anymore, I hope I’m in a better place once I leave this shit hole.
Major Bee Rain to Sergeant Hart, nothing’s makin’ sense ( maybe you rn, lmao )
But hey the basis of my nostal-G, will be on this foundry for budding brains, Memories.
Pumped with yellow, feeling blue, what is next? I’ve got no clue.
Understood the working of the X’x, the kings, breaking stereotypes and your brain cells;
Where’s why?

This window through which I see everyday, filter, insert, and repeat my way
I find in dreams what I lack in me, moments of ecstasy.
Maybe it’s just destiny, it was meant to be, this road was so straight but now it’s so wavy.
Required, rewired to think inside the box, fired up, Momma my wings are racing the clocks.
These specks of future that I hold within my veins, to you they remain inane, please explain your disdain.
I shared drinks with saints and condescending dreamers, Godly demeanor

It was confusing, all that new shit, amusements,
Cruising through that nuisance, We was on it, We wanted it

Here’s to the tree that we all have grown up to be, here’s to the leaves that you shed with me, here’s to the seasons we survived, winter and summer with all their might, Here’s to the weeds, those selfish pricks, here’s to my miserable grammar, here’s to everything that helped us raise the bar.

Adam please don’t sue me, here’s to the new me.

My walls are getting red, it’s a fire in my head, will you be fireman, s’il vous plaît.
All I wanna do is be free, have fun.

It’s no new game, new day, we’re ready to play, we aren’t scared.

p.s. {anything I write, is never complete without a short rant XD }
This societal ladder is a high mess so fvk that shit.
all these plastics, dispose of them, flick
approval and shit, we all seek it, lit 🔥
The world doesn’t care ’bout their sob stories, 100 retweets and their clique is out of their meat.
when the year reads twelve and the clocks are ringing their bells, deprived of your powers, it’s the end of your hour, cinderassalamu alaikum, chapter end.

Godspeed, God willing

HWR (12/7/16)

The air reeks of frantic gloom and everyone’s lungs are speaking with death, while their tongues are anti-doom.
There’s no bypass, one way in and another out for some, the final bell has rung, their time has come.
And their stood out, two remnants of happiness, careering through the halls and getting caught in everyone’s eyes, diabolical.
Extenuating circumstances made it unpunishable, for these two to spread happiness, in this lugubrious room.
A sight for some sore eyes, inspiring a whole garden of lost souls, to curve their lips, when life’s fists are going out of control.
It’s so magical, the people nonplussed.

Time Is A Weird Concept.

We count our lives by days, we celebrate each landmark in our lives and remember them by dates, we live in the moments. And I’ve come to a conclusion that time is a weird concept.There have been moments where you are stuck for ages, but isn’t a moment supposed to be brief. These moments are so vivid that they stay with you forever and ever.

Times, where you wanted time to go slow, but it ticked away faster than usual, atleast it seemed like it. Why?!

A man is in a coma, how must he feel, he can’t count the days passing by, he’s unconscious, and snap, he wakes up within the blink of an eye, not knowing where he is in time, while everyone was doing what they do, and time just flew.

You are enjoying life and boom! it hits you, it might be some homework left, some thing you shouldn’t have said, but it hits you, time pauses this time, everything is in slo mo and you can feel your stomach being crushed, water trickling down your face.

Universal peace, a thriving jungle, the mighty sun is rising, you just saved the world and you’re in your two minutes of fame, you just felt forever and you hoped it would be forever, but no, snap back to reality again and wake up. You check how long that dream lasted, surprised to find out that it was only a measly 15 minutes, even though it felt like an eternity, like forever.

You can not alter time. Each and everyone of us experience everyday in a different way, with different people, on a different atmosphere and if we were born in a different time, again we would be with different people in a different atmosphere. It’s basically a paradox.

Live in the now. You have a lot to live for and many to inspire.

Random Excerpts from My Brain-Shaped Box. ( #1 )

MOST OF THIS MIGHT NOT MAKE SENSE, LIFE IS JUST A BOWL OF KURRY, BUT CARRY ON! ❤️
I can explain how it is Kurry, in another post! 🙏🏻
This RNG was always anti-moi. RNGesus, help pls. The numbers were weird and always reeked of bad. The odds were never in my favor.
The clock ticks away like it’s running for its life. I’m lost in its translation.
Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock.
I can only hear in slow motion, I’m dissolving into my bed, particle by particle and BOOM! everything goes black.
This darkness felt like forever, I just felt forever. Its face says rude but its intentions are clean.
Solo, that’s how I roll. Regret was what eventually followed.
In the end you can only preach and it’s the one being preached who chooses what to practice.
As the music slowly sets in and my feet touch the ground again, I realised.
The tv is cranked up to maximum, all worldly noises repelled, ironic. 😉
Most of this might not make sense, life doesn’t make sense, life is a puzzle, and procrastination doesn’t let you solve it.
I sit down to write, waiting for the pen to flow and the mind to glow but nothing moves, mood disapproves.
I miss that hell and I don’t, it’s a complicated relationship.
It’s magical how some people are easily fooled, what’s more amazing was with what grace it was done.
You are a Kawaii princess. 😉
Still dreaming of living in a Polaroid, life runs light speed, and I forget to live in the now, I start to vanish away in between.
Reminiscing about the time I had no time and waited to have time; time to explore, now that time is all fine and dandy, mood has other plans.
Scrolling through old messages, it was mesmerizing how it started with some.
Tumblr posts are my source of energy.
The cell is the powerhouse of portable gadgets.
The darkness starts disappearing, I can see a ray of light, so close yet so far.
And I wake up hoping time to have either blasted into the past or zoomed into the future.
But no, life is not a wish granting factory.

Lose Yourself.

Disclaimer – I wanted to write a poem on some things for weeks that were bugging me. But exams came in without knocking on the door. This is the final product after 4-weeks struggle. ;_; Have a great day. ❤️

When I was all alone

When I was searching for a home

Black clouds everywhere

So cynical,

Showers above me

Should I be sad or happy

That man before

I should have never been,

An item of comfort,

Which I found solace in

It had been a big burden

Carrying,

Aggravated by the masks

All around

Calling it an aberration

You say it reduces my reputation,

It’s the only ray of light I’ve got

In these clouds of darkness.

A better person

I had aimed to be

But the bullet, it,

Came back at me.

Wanted to change myself,

Help myself

Tried so hard to fit in

Everything was wrong

At the right moments

My world was at sixes and sevens.

This earth was rotating

And I was just waiting

For my veins

To be filled with glitter.

We write on this page of life

With ink of pain,

All that extra effort

Hopefully, didn’t die in vain.

Are they really as lovely and good

As they seem,

Are they really as cool

As they seem,

Just gambled everything

And faced my fears

To be broken down into tears.

Sunshine piercing through my eyes

My heart skips a beat

The mind glows,

Fires up every nerve

Like there’s no tomorrow.

These thoughts keep echoing

In the back of my head

Until each and every brain cell

They shred.

My clothes are worn,

My heart is torn

Tortured and toyed,

My patience is gone,

But I shall never admit defeat.

I wake up once again

My misery plays on repeat

I’m fading away

My knees are weak

My existence, petty,

I just wrote this so I could say

Mom’s spaghetti.

I slip into improbable fantasies

Without a trace of resistance

The ferocious thunder roars above

Snap back to reality.

I followed you into a dark place

I became your prey

Beautiful

How you did it with such grace.

I wake up once again,

For this beautiful sunshine

Singing my name in glee,

I wake up once again,

Knowing that a heart beats

In rhythm with mine.

Moonlight Serenade.

She’s a beautiful mess inside
Lost in a world of her own
Where she wears the crown
She got no flaws to hide.

So caught up in her thoughts,
They’re like a cloud
On which she floats.

I follow behind her
In her strong sillage,
A broken man
Lead into her heart.

She walks on this earth with pride,
In her eyes
Brightly pied,
I could see the universe
I’d just get unnerved.

When the sky is clear
And goes away the night
She then too shines very, very bright
And my heart,
She smites.

She’s so disparate,
In good spirits
And sublime.

Like the sun’s apricity
In winter,
Her caress,
Brings me immense amenity.

Manic.

A blast of happiness
Pumping through my body.

Come back to my senses
And snap back to reality.

Claustrophobic,
Can’t walk around at a party.

Uncontrollable lust,
Feeling a little extra horny.

Serotonin decreases,
Depression takes over
Makes me stormy.

Infinite wants
But in a state of affluence,
Makes my thoughts foggy.

“Is that a book?!”
No! It’s a dead tree.

How can I kill him?
Or should I swim across the Arabian Sea?
A bazillion thoughts racing
Should I let them free?

Sleep isn’t a problem,
I can sleep at three
Still wake up early
And be healthy.

Make my self feel better
By showing grandiosity,
Instead putting myself
In a state of inferiority.