twenty sixteen

Let’s dive deep into this
Work of mine, where my impulses hide, low tide.
Where these wires in my mind, intertwine to define the colors I feel, my penned down reel.
Tyrannical chemicals losing control,
error 404, Dopamine isn’t working anymore, I hope I’m in a better place once I leave this shit hole.
Major Bee Rain to Sergeant Hart, nothing’s makin’ sense ( maybe you rn, lmao )
But hey the basis of my nostal-G, will be on this foundry for budding brains, Memories.
Pumped with yellow, feeling blue, what is next? I’ve got no clue.
Understood the working of the X’x, the kings, breaking stereotypes and your brain cells;
Where’s why?

This window through which I see everyday, filter, insert, and repeat my way
I find in dreams what I lack in me, moments of ecstasy.
Maybe it’s just destiny, it was meant to be, this road was so straight but now it’s so wavy.
Required, rewired to think inside the box, fired up, Momma my wings are racing the clocks.
These specks of future that I hold within my veins, to you they remain inane, please explain your disdain.
I shared drinks with saints and condescending dreamers, Godly demeanor

It was confusing, all that new shit, amusements,
Cruising through that nuisance, We was on it, We wanted it

Here’s to the tree that we all have grown up to be, here’s to the leaves that you shed with me, here’s to the seasons we survived, winter and summer with all their might, Here’s to the weeds, those selfish pricks, here’s to my miserable grammar, here’s to everything that helped us raise the bar.

Adam please don’t sue me, here’s to the new me.

My walls are getting red, it’s a fire in my head, will you be fireman, s’il vous plaît.
All I wanna do is be free, have fun.

It’s no new game, new day, we’re ready to play, we aren’t scared.

p.s. {anything I write, is never complete without a short rant XD }
This societal ladder is a high mess so fvk that shit.
all these plastics, dispose of them, flick
approval and shit, we all seek it, lit 🔥
The world doesn’t care ’bout their sob stories, 100 retweets and their clique is out of their meat.
when the year reads twelve and the clocks are ringing their bells, deprived of your powers, it’s the end of your hour, cinderassalamu alaikum, chapter end.

Godspeed, God willing

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p o l i t I c s

Vision 20/20
Still can’t see the dirty dirty,
Washed in milk
No signs of filth
Hands have killed.

Immune to pain
No losses, only gains
Notoriety,
Don’t play the fame game.

The acquisition of a long nose
Is the entry price,
Spend a long time
The money thrice.

Ph.D. in hypocrisy
Now all busy
While the masses dance
To the dance of your lungs,
Take the chance.

It’s all in the game of the tongue,
From every direction
Sugar coated words are flung.

Our sun,
It’s falling down,
Just run around
Don’t let that frown
Go upside down,
Because our sun is falling down
Just run around.

Lose Yourself.

Disclaimer – I wanted to write a poem on some things for weeks that were bugging me. But exams came in without knocking on the door. This is the final product after 4-weeks struggle. ;_; Have a great day. ❤️

When I was all alone

When I was searching for a home

Black clouds everywhere

So cynical,

Showers above me

Should I be sad or happy

That man before

I should have never been,

An item of comfort,

Which I found solace in

It had been a big burden

Carrying,

Aggravated by the masks

All around

Calling it an aberration

You say it reduces my reputation,

It’s the only ray of light I’ve got

In these clouds of darkness.

A better person

I had aimed to be

But the bullet, it,

Came back at me.

Wanted to change myself,

Help myself

Tried so hard to fit in

Everything was wrong

At the right moments

My world was at sixes and sevens.

This earth was rotating

And I was just waiting

For my veins

To be filled with glitter.

We write on this page of life

With ink of pain,

All that extra effort

Hopefully, didn’t die in vain.

Are they really as lovely and good

As they seem,

Are they really as cool

As they seem,

Just gambled everything

And faced my fears

To be broken down into tears.

Sunshine piercing through my eyes

My heart skips a beat

The mind glows,

Fires up every nerve

Like there’s no tomorrow.

These thoughts keep echoing

In the back of my head

Until each and every brain cell

They shred.

My clothes are worn,

My heart is torn

Tortured and toyed,

My patience is gone,

But I shall never admit defeat.

I wake up once again

My misery plays on repeat

I’m fading away

My knees are weak

My existence, petty,

I just wrote this so I could say

Mom’s spaghetti.

I slip into improbable fantasies

Without a trace of resistance

The ferocious thunder roars above

Snap back to reality.

I followed you into a dark place

I became your prey

Beautiful

How you did it with such grace.

I wake up once again,

For this beautiful sunshine

Singing my name in glee,

I wake up once again,

Knowing that a heart beats

In rhythm with mine.

Why?!

She only asked for a new beginning.

The way her sins were spread around
Like an epidemic,
Words are usually lost
In the stream of the mind
Did you know her life they’d cost?

The way she was objectified
Threw around
Her tragedies buried deep,
It’s not easy going on
The road ahead is very steep.
Leave everything behind
And move on,
Embrace the change,
Welcoming warmly the fact
That the next step was
Early Eternal Sleep.

The way she was pressurized
She had made up her mind
There was no going back
No one to confide,
She from herself would hide.

Her situation was dire
Her last resort she had pushed aside
No matter how much she tried
The words just won’t come out right.

Don’t be shy
To say hi,
You could’ve saved her life
Scared,
We might have strifes.
Waited,
For the perfect time.
Now she was just gone
After her 15 minutes of fame,
Please impute them for this crime.

Shamed,
For something she never did,
Her heart was broken
Then stomped on by him.
Her faith in humanity
Was already dwindling
He came by to rub salt in her wound.

Then came another,
The root,
You did it all as a joke
And looted from a burning home.

Sorry for doing
Everything even she didn’t know she did,
For putting on you a burden,
So big.

  • ( 13 reasons why has been a huge inspiration for this. That book will stay with me forever  { I hope so } ) ❤️

Triggers.

They were the triggers to my mind
A Himalayan blunder,
How could I be so blind
I became confined
I wish this clock I could unwind,
Go back in time
Fix everything
If only life was so kind
And you I had declined
All the pieces to my life would be perfectly aligned.
We were like threads,
If we just hadn’t entwined
Only for it to break
By a masked snake
It all just fell behind,
There were no window blinds
You had to go against the wind,
I took your offer kind.

My Existence.

The entirety of my freshman year
I was like an apparition
Roamed through the gloomy corridors
Each with its own moans.

Tried to create a good impression
Staggered by the fear of slander and depression.

Victim of abnegation
Friendly abstention
Causing a series of awkward interviews and abreactions
I was an aberration
Craving for affection
Lacking the power of captivation.

Constantly castigated
For a choice I never made,
My life was a puzzle
Longing for coligation.

Harsh words used to hit very hard
No companion to comfort me like, fomentation.

Another despondent soul
Wandering,
Craving.